today i realized there is no helping you u use God as a symbol of your power you lost your way long ago i remember u watching & reading horror, death, suffering and all perversions of the world u would take it on as your mindset and live in it for ages i think that's when you lost your soul because when u tried to find God all that you had to offer him was a heart full of hatred & stubbornness you never humbled yourself and asked forgiveness so instead you enticed badness & conjured up this spiritualistic form of worship for a long time you were abusive and miserable and loved to spread it around now you wear a halo that you put on yourself i have to admit you are calm and agreeable now.. so unlike you because you are now a shell filled with someone or something else something evil
Hoping you will write me back. Then I'll own a piece of you not everyone possesses. The way you curl your M's as complex as your presence. Careless capital R's in the middle of words make me smile reminiscing. Buried deep in my dresser drawer, I'll treasure. Only memories now of tortuous pleasure.
break things in the house, put holes in the walls or doors, beat her with an object, threaten to throw heavy furniture at her, twist her wrists, bend her fingers back, pull her hair out, push her, slam her against the wall, choke her, kick her about the floor, call her ugly, call her fat, call her useless, tell her nobody loves or likes her, tell her she's a whore... the next day, write her a note that you're sorry. If she doesn't accept your apology, repeat process...
"One day you're there and then all of a sudden there's less of you. And you wonder where that part went. If it's living somewhere outside of you... and you keep thinking... maybe you'll get it back. And then you realize... it's just gone." ~Peggy; Meditations in an Emergency episode from Mad Men
Feeling alot feeling almost nothing How'd I get here I was so young.. time just slips.. holding on to what's left of my beauty is not an easy thing to admit. If I think too long, It deepens my worry. I am not the naive girl I used to be. I wouldn't dare let a man own my peace. I wouldn't dare blame God, ever. I would never again have a dangerous time. I will always think before jumping. I will always feel gratitude. my heart is young. I feel soo much.
The narcissist enjoys being looked at and not looking back. ~ Mason Cooley
Nobody can be kinder than the narcissist, while you react to life in his own terms. ~ Bowen, Elizabeth
Withhold admiration from a narcissist and be disliked. Give it and be treated with indifference. ~ Mason Cooley
Dear egotist boy you’ve never really had to suffer any consequence You’ve never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes You’d never understand anyone showing resistance Dear popular boy I know you’re used to getting everything so easily A stranger to the concept of reciprocity People honor boys like you in this society ~ Alanis Morissette